Friday, October 10, 2008

Feed Your Boredom

I was told today that it's best for me to be working when I can because it" beats sitting around watching tv and feeding your (stops what she is about to say and laughs) boredom". Ouch...

I would like to say that I have a thick skin when it comes to my feelings being hurt, but in all honesty, I don't. I can say that what others say about me does not affect how I feel about myself, but this is not true. If you want to get me where it hurts, then talk about my weight. There's nothing worse to tell me or to make fun of me than by razzing me about my weight.

I started taking the FDA-approved alli pills the day before yesterday, and so far, so good. I hate that there are others out there who just want to sabotage the way that I feel and make me want to believe that I really should not try. It hurts deep.

On a side note, though...I had a Chick-Fil-A sandwich with a fresh fruit cup on the side for lunch about an hour ago. At least I am feeling better about the decisions that I make and know that I am eating out of hunger and not boredom.

I want to really say " screw you" to some people, but in the end, it's not worth I will allow myself to feel the hurtful remark for only a short while, and then move on...

1 comment:

Adriana said...

Hey Sarah :) I'm determined too :) I totally admire you for being honest about yourself...I have a blog too... and have been honest as well :) Please check it out and we can all support each other :D